as the whole family gather
we gather in two seperate groups
adults. and the little ones, us.
questions are thrown around
what's happening?
what's wrong?
is she alright?
how's she?
HOW'D WE KNOW.
WE CAN GO IN THE F. ROOM.
stupid m.f. name list
screw hospitals
doc says she may go anytime
and we dont get to see her
THAT'S GREAT
the little ones,
we know the adults are not telling us
not telling us stuff they know
so all we do is make wild guesses
we sit in a circle on my bedroom floor.
'its up to her now'
'she's in charge'
'she needs the will'
'she can do it'
BUT
she's suffering
maybe its better if she goes
at least she wont suffer
are we being selfish?
for wanting her to stay
and suffer here?
this world is a torture
i dont know what to think
i dont want to think
its up to her, and God.